WALKING DEAD 牵线娃娃

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In a mask I hide

Yawn and moan do my claws

as if they're having an organsm

roll, roll,

roll me into angelic

 

How's it feel to be swallowed?

Devoured?

Chewed?

 

Yet I barely feel

with blood starched on my mask

They call it sand

 

In and out my mouth wraps and pukes

the angles

I thought I long to

be one or maybe I just long for their disgusting

chasteness

 

II

 

I sit on what I puke out,

butts on cream cheese

same as,

fresh strawberries dipped in chocolate

 

Symbiionts come together

Butts and mouth

make no difference to

me,

when they let out anything

I don't need inside me

such as,

 

Shits, cream cheese, fresh strawberries, chocolate, pee, men

 

Without these excrements

I'm strong and

confident on my butts

我在怀旧，在看四年前和N年前的没缘看到的电影。这次心水推荐：香草天空和潘的迷宫。

 

香草天空

不要被甜腻的名字骗了，比起爱情，它讲述的是如何不逃避生活本身。再说，剧情复杂前卫得很有科幻元素。眼泪统计：眼红了三次，绝对是赚泪水大片。

喜欢：COLD PLAY的歌，几年后重新听，想到初二弱智智的样子。

喜欢：PENELOPE贯穿全剧的话：“OPEN YOUR EYES。”略带沙哑，女人香，西班牙语口音，酥到骨子里。

喜欢：PENELOPE最近因为巴塞罗那和这部东东正式成为我极品女人榜上第二名。温暖的眼神，性感的颧骨，蜜糖色的皮肤，大得像梦的笑容，巨赞的演技。我的女人啊～～

喜欢：TOM CRUISE毁容的样子比他原来的样子更惊魂动魄。比起他本人，他的面具更有表现力。象牙白色，微微下弯的嘴角和眼角，在人潮汹涌的CLUB里一直朝着天的方向，游动在人上。

喜欢：剧情，剧情设计得太完美了。爱情，科幻，心理学，恰当的背景音乐，等等。

喜欢：张驰有度，好久没看过节奏拿捏得这么好的电影了。

喜欢：很多很多经典的对话，可以做摘抄了。

香草的粉红色的天空下，DAVID对从来不曾存在的爱人说：“Look at us. I'm frozen and you're dead. And I love you."

 

潘的迷宫

如果香草天空给五分的话，这部只有三分了，不过还是值得一看的电影。眼泪统计：眼红了一次，起码眼红了嘛。它获奖的那届奥斯卡出了不少好电影。BM很多人喜欢的LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE，英语老师RORY推荐的THE LIVES OF THE OTHERS，被人评论滥的AN INCOVENIENT TRUTH，个人巨讨厌其女主演的MARIE ANTOINETTE，经济老师MARK喜欢的HAPPY FEET（汗……想想JASON STATHEM喜欢小企鹅的样子），男主角很MAN的LETTERS FROM IWO JIMA……（以上电影全推荐）。然后呢，潘的迷宫貌似拿了第二多的提名，牛。

其实电影主题很直接明了的说。不过跟香草天空一样，以为它是魔幻片，那你就错了。比起魔幻它更像抗战片。一个小女孩与残酷的统治军抗争，被地下的鬼神引导，最后献身……算了，我最不会概括剧情了，大家还是自己看电影本身吧。

最喜欢的是里面提到的传说和巫术。其中有一个是曼陀罗花的根渴望成为人类婴孩，又丑又胖，却在手掌终颤抖怪叫。还有就是女主角的前身，冥界的小公主，因为不耐寂寞爬梯子来到人间，被太阳一晒，失去了地底所有的记忆，但最终魂魄还是返回了国王皇后的身边。（其实如果我是她能不跟阳光打交道，我乐还来不及呢……）。有很多西班牙地区的神话，增长知识。而且不愧为获得最佳化妆奖的电影，里面的鬼神们长得别提有多难看了。其中的“大佬”，高大嶙峋的骨架上盖了一层苍白的皮（别联想到画皮，那部小垃圾），手指又粗又长，透着血色，掌心是两只巨大的血红眼睛，而脸上只有翻出来的鼻孔和突出的犬牙，下巴的皮刁吊的，丑得无与伦比。我的MUSE啊！电影里没说它的名字，目前我在查询中。其实不光是极致丑陋的鬼神们，电影本身也具有震撼性的。比如统治军的将领是小变态一个，喜欢出其不意地用刀捅人或对着尸体浪费上六七颗子弹，后来就被游击队的卧底用小刀把嘴一刮刮成蝙蝠侠里JOKER的样子，动作特利落。

其实看点真的不多，但影片那种灰暗潮湿的拍摄色调给人的感觉是，不如归去。现实如此残酷，何如地下。虽然丑恶，黑暗中自在歌舞，平安千年。嗯，非常有我归隐风格的片子。

 

随便说说其他看到的电影。

星尘：BIG NO NO。

墨水心：剧情太闷。

ENCHANTED：弱智但好看片一部。影片到后来还是说明了一些道理的。如果想傻笑两小时的话不妨选这部。

纳尼亚2：它的电影从来没比书好过。

 

唉，我不要怀旧，能不能给我看点一年内的好电影，注意重点是好电影。

A self-explanatory list on the differences between my 2nd high scool and my college.

 

On height:

St. CLare's: "I'm almost the shortest in the school..."

BM:"Wow, there ARE non-asians who are actually shorter than me, and a lot..."

 

On width:

St Clare's:"God...their (70% of the girls) legs are as half as slim as mine..."

BM:"God...their(30% of the girls) waists are as thrice as wide as mine..."

 

On alcohol:

St Clare's: "A pin of Guiness after class? Not again...how about mojito?"

BM:"...Do I have to go as far as to Swarthmore to drink 99% fruit juice mixed with 1% vodka?"

 

On daily activities:

St Clare's: "I've watched all the films that I can find...what should I do today?"

BM:"Library, Gym, Class, Library, Dinning hall, Gym, Class, Library...Bed."

 

On beauty:

St Clare's: "what a pleasure just watching these socialites around the world. And cute guys sitting next to and across me."

BM:"Hmm...100 cases of fashion disasters every day on average."

 

On party:

St Clare's: cameras, gorgeous people, delicate dresses, pretty makeups, amazing clubs in Oxford.

BM: no cameras, almost no gorgeous people, trashy t-shirts, no makeups, 40min ride to Swarthmore...

 

On volunteering and working:

St Clare's: (One of my friends) "How dare she asked me to clean the shop! So I quit!"

BM: you know, dish room, warm peanut butter, sinks piled with oily pans, digging dirt, etc...

 

On travelling:

St Clare's: flying back to Germany and Italy for weekends, Euro tours every holiday, been to every continent in the world.

BM: "I've never been outside of the States..."

 

On diet:

St Clare's: super skinny girls eating only lettuce and fruits.

BM: "I've seen her eating waffles with cream cheese and jam and peanut butter and cream and strawberry and honey for breakfast for a week..."

 

On guys:

St Clare's: Abundunce and high quality.

BM: Drunk and not-exactly-cute guys at Swat, nerds at Haver, too-old postbacs at Bryn Mawr, lame professors, that's all. And the obligation of being single for three years.

 

On talking abut grades:

St Clare's: (coversation all over the school) "42." "41." "40.""35." "28."...(We enjoyed those conversations generally.)

BM: "...jesus, it's driving me crazy guessing my peers' grades. Fxxxxxx Honor Code."

 

On professors:

St Clare's: Simon, Kevin, Mark, Ian...I miss you guys so much!

BM: "...It's not like I actually stay awake in class after all. So no comments on professors."

 

On homework:

St Clare's: "When's the last time I sat down and wrote them? Don't quite remember..."

BM: one word: never-ending.

 

On residence:

St Clare's: room cleaning service everyday, showers with DOORS, comfortable beds.

BM: big and gloomy rooms, showers without DOORS, beds that I hate lying on.

 

On fragrance:

St Clare's: Anna Sui's baby dolls, Lancome's Tresor, J'adore, Pink, 5th Avenue...

BM: smell of supermarket deoderant, or the weird smell in the absence of the deoderant...ouch.

 

On natural surrounding:

St Clare's: the most beautiful spring I've ever seen. And wild berries to pick in the fall.

BM: cherry blossoms, trees, red trees, snow, nothingness. and all that sunshine I hate!

 

On the site:

St Clare's: Situated in the wealthiest area of Oxford, what more can I comment on?

BM: It's not like BM's in the middle of nowhere, it's just we never have time to explore.

 

On my mood:

St Clare's: Though wonderful, I'm not sure it's the place I belong to.

BM: almost certian it's not the place I belong to either...

两者都是，让人安静而又无法完全瞭解的东西。

 

图书馆，在那里做作业才有效率。我走过一本本书脊泛黄斑驳的书，那些我永远没机会读到或读完的书，泄气地在书架尽头坐下，开始用几百分钟解几个波函数。

某日在藏书室像点咖啡般地问管理员要了本LES LETTRES SUR LA DANSE。只是顽皮地重温一下撅着嘴说SUR的感觉，没意识到送到我手里的是一本全法语的两三个世纪前的大宝物，还带着少许的陈旧霉味。硬着头皮读啊读，语言能力完全荒废掉了，却可以在久违的语言阐述的舞蹈理论中，找到一点点开心。就像如果我走到书架尽头之前，会随手拿一本大大的考古学或艺术史翻开，然后会合上书就马上跑去申请历史学专业。

但你知道，我就一学物理的。所以那么多的书，和书架，和非科学专业的学生，压抑得让我立刻安静下来，立刻埋头写薛定谔方程。那么多无法完全瞭解的东西，来世吧。

我坐的那个位置，窗子正对大片大片的花树。在另一岸，粉红色。

 

GLOOMY SUNDAY。强烈推荐的德国电影。貌似是七八月来第一次让我认认真真肃然起敬观看的电影了。音乐自然大家都很熟悉，这里要引用的是电影的一句台词：奇怪的曲子，就像有人跟你讲了不想听的话，但心底里知道那都是实话。

上一次听到这种话，是什么时候呢？

我又是怎样逃避的？

你看电影里，每个自杀的人临死时，都两眼瞪着，嘴唇微微颤抖着，瞳孔慢慢放大，满世界都充溢着那个奇怪的曲子。奇怪得让每个人都突然发现，哎呀，真相已经从水灵灵的黄花闺女变成鲜血横流的苍老尸骨了。包括电影里所谓的爱慕之情，那个燃烧尽理智的该死的东西。

GLOOMY SUNDAY, 带来噩运，导致听众自杀的名曲。

它让我非常想去布达佩斯了。那里的男人似乎不是棱角分明的冷竣型男就是厨艺精湛的好老公，电影尽两小时，我数过我把“好帅啊被电晕了”说了10次，把“好男人啊”说了7次。而那里的女人，被情人们誉为天使。女主角的一颦一笑，美玉无暇，完全是销魂的美人胚子。这年头难得见到这么惊艳的女人了，看得让人特怀旧。

嗯，所以要好好努力找个假期去布达佩斯。为了那么好看的人去，被人说俗气也没所谓。

波函数和电影里的钢琴师，谁更帅点？

还真是个让人左右为难的问题。

大家别看今年的什么奥斯卡奖影片了，我把主要的七八部看了一遍根本没被感动一下。酒还是陈的香，电影还是老的好。

显然不是因为它出现在GOSSIP GIRL第一季结局里才喜欢的。

我想有些人知道原因。

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be
The seasons have changed and so have we
There was little we could say and even less that we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you

We buried our love in the wintery grave
A lump in the snow was all that remained
But we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks
And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak

When the spring arrived, we were taken by surprise
When the flows under our feet bled into the sea
And nothing was left for you and me

We're not the same dear and it seems to me
There's nowhere we can go with nothing underneath
Then it saddens me to say what we both knew was true
That the ice was getting thinner under me and you

The ice was getting thinner under me and you

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